Over the last 365 days my life has done a complete 180. I’ve gone from the single girl, doing her own thing (and enjoying it might I add) to being in a serious relationship, pregnant, and I have a puppy. I’m not complaining, but it’s a change. A change I had not quite prepared my mental for.
My boyfriend and I are like oil and water on many levels. He’s a homebody, I’m the socialite. He’s the simple, one word response guy, I’m the “no let me explain it further” woman. With this, we’ve learned to take our relationship in strides. This also means I had to learn to accept another type of person into my life on a more personal level. It’s easy to have associates or distant friends who you totally differ from but you’re significant other? That takes some work. In the beginning, I used to wonder how this relationship was going to work. But God. God has shown me that looking at the heart of the being is far more relevant than one’s personal take on trivial things. My boyfriend has a heart of gold. Like literally, his heart could be a freaking goldmine. He will give, he will empathize, he will be my knight in shining armor every time. And I prayed for that. I am grateful for him. I pray for him. And as odd as it may sound, I just want him to have joy – even if one day his happiness does not reside in me.
But back to what I was saying – I’m going through some changes yall. I’m ready for a career boost. But I feel like I have to push pause until my baby is born. I’m learning & growing in my relationship daily <—- This comes with its own challenges. and now I’m trying to mentally “prepare” (although I’m not sure if preparation is even possible) to become a mother. I’m not nervous or afraid. I’ve been blessed to be surrounded by love & helpmates. I am, however… what’s the word? Challenged.
Life Is Such…A Rollercoaster.