Yo, where are my Life Is Such accountability partners? Y’all are slacking! Lol no but really, I had to check myself just now. I did what any good journaler (yes, this is a total made up word) would do – I went back and re-read a few posts. And in those posts a reminder smacked me dead in the face. I committed to a DAILY journal. Not weekly, or when I feel like it. So here’s to that reminder and that commitment. I will do better!

Okay now that my rant is over, let me say what I came to say. I recently started a new study plan on the Bible app. This particular plan is from Priscilla Shirer’s “Discerning The Voice Of God” book and it is changing my life! I mean, just the first few days covering obedience and how that is the root of hearing God’s voice is amazing. Confession: I bought the actual book a year or so ago and never even opened it. In fact, I believe I’ve actually offered it to someone else multiple times but never gave it to them. And here I am now, reading an excerpt from that very book. Funny how things come back around and have you looking like a silly nut. But it’s even more astounding when you realize that it’s all in Gods timing. Clearly I wasn’t ready to receive what he had for me in when I bought the book. And now that my life has brought me to a new point of stretching, pruning, and soaring, I am looking for the help that has been right in front of my face. So I am going to finish my Bible plan, then I’m going to read the book.

This past week has been a uphill battle. I’m slowly getting in better spirits as I said I would. But I think I need to take a step back from some obvious mood crushers such as social media. Sure, social media tells me the news and it highlights some great moments (shoutout to Miss Universe from South Africa!) but it also has a way of bringing me down. Within the last 2-3 weeks, death has been rampant on my Facebook and IG. While I know that death is inevitable, it doesn’t make it easier to see or to cope with. In the midst of me praying for the loved ones of those lost, I am also praying for myself and my family’s health and healing. And though this may sound selfish, I have to be honest; when I scroll through my timelines and I see sadness, I take a little bit of that with me throughout my day. That little bit I took with me from the first post continues to grow as I continue to scroll. And little old me can only take so much. We have to be mindful of what we’re taking on. Be more aware of the spiritual burdening we are allowing when we take on someone else’s problems or pain. As mentioned, it may sound selfish but we have to learn to take care of ourselves spiritually. Sometimes that means not putting up a little guard door or removing yourself from a situation. As for me, I will continue to stand in prayer for everyone but I will also have to remove myself in order to help revive my own spirits. With that said, please pray with me for those who have lost someone dear to them. Praying for peace, understanding, and most important LOVE.