Going into a new decade, I decided to enter my 30’s purposefully and as clear headed as I can be. This past decade has been nothing short of amazing. I was able to live life fully in my early to mid 20’s and decade is ending with a whole family. 2 amazing baby girls and a husband later, I know my 30’s will have so much more in store.
Although I’ve had some great times, I have to be honest with y’all. I was down about coming into 30. I’m having to mourn relationships that I had no intentions of losing & it’s been hard on me lately. See, when I make a friend – and I mean a real friend. Not the chick you met at the club and now y’all are all of a sudden besties because y’all both turned up to Megan Thee Stallion’s latest hit. I mean people who have been in my life for years and I’ve told my real life stories to. People who I thought I would raise my kids around and have auntie play dates. This isn’t easy for me. When I make friends I like to keep them around for a lifetime. But God sometimes has other plans and although I don’t understand it and while it may hurt, I have no choice but to accept it. I woke up on Monday determined to enter my 30’s with gratitude and at peace with what God has blessed me thus far, looking forward to what’s ahead. So I set out to make amends and clear my conscience with those who were on my heart. Then, God told me that I have to let go. I’ve done all I could for and there is no need to address anything further. So with prayer, I set out to change my perspective.
I’m not one of those people who believe in the stars and all of that jazz. I am simple. What’s meant to be will be because God’s plan will always prevail. Who am I to ignore his plan? As a person who believes the tongue is a mighty weapon, I can’t walk into this new decade full of promise and shatter it with an ungrateful heart or misunderstood tongue. I have to be purposeful in my words, thoughts, and actions. Everything has a consequence and I’m praying for positive outcomes all up and down 30 & onward.
With that said – HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! Cheers to life of purpose. Life in abundance. Life in gratitude. Letting go of things I cannot change and working diligently on those I can. And as a gift to me, I ask that you spread love & kindness today.
Love y’all for the support thus far and I look forward to sharing the next year with you guys in tow.